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Andbuglescallingforthemfromsadshires。

Whatcandlesmaybeheldtospeedthemall?

Notinthehandsofboys,butintheireyesShallshinetheholyglimmersofgoodbyes。

Thepallorofgirls’browsshallbetheirpall;

Theirflowersthetendernessofpatientminds,Andeachslowduskadrawing—downofblinds。

TheSend—offDowntheclose,darkeninglanestheysangtheirwayTothesiding—shed,Andlinedthetrainwithfacesgrimlygay。

TheirbreastswerestuckallwhitewithwreathandsprayAsmen’sare,dead。

Dullporterswatchedthem,andacasualtrampStoodstaringhard,Sorrytomissthemfromtheuplandcamp。

Then,unmoved,signalsnodded,andalampWinkedtotheguard。

Sosecretly,likewrongshushed—up,theywent。

Theywerenotours:

Weneverheardtowhichfronttheseweresent。

NorthereiftheyyetmockwhatwomenmeantWhogavethemflowers。

ShalltheyreturntobeatingsofgreatbellsInwildtrainloads?

Afew,afew,toofewfordrumsandyells,Maycreepback,silent,tostillvillagewellsUphalf—knownroads。

InsensibilityI

HappyaremenwhoyetbeforetheyarekilledCanlettheirveinsruncold。

WhomnocompassionfleersOrmakestheirfeetSoreonthealleyscobbledwiththeirbrothers。

Thefrontlinewithers,Buttheyaretroopswhofade,notflowersForpoets’tearfulfooling:

Men,gapsforfillingLosseswhomighthavefoughtLonger;butnoonebothers。

II

AndsomeceasefeelingEventhemselvesorforthemselves。

DullnessbestsolvesTheteaseanddoubtofshelling,AndChance’sstrangearithmeticComessimplerthanthereckoningoftheirshilling。

TheykeepnocheckonArmies’decimation。

III

Happyarethesewholoseimagination:

Theyhaveenoughtocarrywithammunition。

Theirspiritdragsnopack。

Theiroldwoundssavewithcoldcannotmoreache。

Havingseenallthingsred,TheireyesareridOfthehurtofthecolourofbloodforever。

Andterror’sfirstconstrictionover,Theirheartsremainsmalldrawn。

TheirsensesinsomescorchingcauteryofbattleNowlongsinceironed,Canlaughamongthedying,unconcerned。

IV

Happythesoldierhome,withnotanotionHowsomewhere,everydawn,somemenattack,Andmanysighsaredrained。

Happytheladwhosemindwasnevertrained:

Hisdaysareworthforgettingmorethannot。

HesingsalongthemarchWhichwemarchtaciturn,becauseofdusk,Thelong,forlorn,relentlesstrendFromlargerdaytohugernight。

V

Wewise,whowithathoughtbesmirchBloodoveralloursoul,HowshouldweseeourtaskButthroughhisbluntandlashlesseyes?

Alive,heisnotvitalovermuch;

Dying,notmortalovermuch;

Norsad,norproud,Norcuriousatall。

HecannottellOldmen’splacidityfromhis。

VI

Butcursedaredullardswhomnocannonstuns,Thattheyshouldbeasstones。

Wretchedarethey,andmeanWithpaucitythatneverwassimplicity。

BychoicetheymadethemselvesimmuneTopityandwhatevermournsinmanBeforethelastseaandthehaplessstars;

Whatevermournswhenmanyleavetheseshores;

WhateversharesTheeternalreciprocityoftears。

DulceetDecorumestBentdouble,likeoldbeggarsundersacks,Knock—kneed,coughinglikehags,wecursedthroughsludge,Tillonthehauntingflaresweturnedourbacks,Andtowardsourdistantrestbegantotrudge。

Menmarchedasleep。Manyhadlosttheirboots,Butlimpedon,blood—shod。Allwentlame,allblind;

Drunkwithfatigue;deafeventothehootsOfgas—shellsdroppingsoftlybehind。

Gas!GAS!Quick,boys!——AnecstasyoffumblingFittingtheclumsyhelmetsjustintime,ButsomeonestillwasyellingoutandstumblingAndflound’ringlikeamaninfireorlime。——

Dimthroughthemistypanesandthickgreenlight,Asunderagreensea,Isawhimdrowning。

InallmydreamsbeforemyhelplesssightHeplungesatme,guttering,choking,drowning。

Ifinsomesmotheringdreams,youtoocouldpaceBehindthewagonthatweflunghimin,Andwatchthewhiteeyeswrithinginhisface,Hishangingface,likeadevil’ssickofsin,Ifyoucouldhear,ateveryjolt,thebloodComegarglingfromthefroth—corruptedlungsBitterasthecudOfvile,incurablesoresoninnocenttongues,——

Myfriend,youwouldnottellwithsuchhighzestTochildrenardentforsomedesperateglory,TheoldLie:~DulceetdecorumestPropatriamori~。

TheSentryWe’dfoundanoldBochedug—out,andheknew,Andgaveushell,forshellonfranticshellHammeredontop,butneverquiteburstthrough。

Rain,gutteringdowninwaterfallsofslimeKeptslushwaisthigh,thatrisinghourbyhour,Chokedupthestepstoothickwithclaytoclimb。

Whatmurkofairremainedstankold,andsourWithfumesofwhizz—bangs,andthesmellofmenWho’dlivedthereyears,andlefttheircurseintheden,Ifnottheircorpses……

ThereweherdedfromtheblastOfwhizz—bangs,butonefoundourdooratlast。

Buffetingeyesandbreath,snuffingthecandles。

Andthud!flump!thud!downthesteepstepscamethumpingAndsplashingintheflood,delugingmuck——

Thesentry’sbody;thenhisrifle,handlesOfoldBochebombs,andmudinruckonruck。

Wedredgedhimup,forkilled,untilhewhined\"Osir,myeyes——I’mblind——I’mblind,I’mblind!\"

Coaxing,IheldaflameagainsthislidsAndsaidifhecouldseetheleastblurredlightHewasnotblind;intimehe’dgetallright。

\"Ican’t,\"hesobbed。Eyeballs,huge—bulgedlikesquidsWatchmydreamsstill;butIforgothimthereInpostingnextforduty,andsendingascoutTobegastretchersomewhere,andflounderingaboutTootherpostsundertheshriekingair。

Thoseotherwretches,howtheybledandspewed,Andonewhowouldhavedrownedhimselfforgood,——

Itrynottorememberthesethingsnow。

Letdreadharkbackforonewordonly:howHalf—listeningtothatsentry’smoansandjumps,Andthewildchatteringofhisbrokenteeth,RenewedmosthorriblywhenevercrumpsPummelledtheroofandsloggedtheairbeneath——

Throughthedensedin,Isay,weheardhimshout\"Iseeyourlights!\"Butourshadlongdiedout。

TheDead—BeatHedropped,——moresullenlythanwearily,Laystupidlikeacod,heavylikemeat,Andnoneofuscouldkickhimtohisfeet;

Justblinkedatmyrevolver,blearily;

——Didn’tappeartoknowawarwason,Orseetheblastedtrenchatwhichhestared。

\"I’lldo’emin,\"hewhined,\"Ifthishand’sspared,I’llmurderthem,Iwill。\"

Alowvoicesaid,\"It’sBlighty,p’raps,hesees;hispluck’sallgone,Dreamingofallthevaliant,that~aren’t~dead:

Bolduncles,smilingministerially;

Maybehisbraveyoungwife,gettingherfunInsomenewhome,improvedmaterially。

It’snotthesestiffshavecrazedhim;northeHun。\"

Wesenthimdownatlast,outoftheway。

Unwounded;——stoutlad,too,beforethatstrafe。

Malingering?Stretcher—bearerswinked,\"Nothalf!\"

NextdayIheardtheDoc。’swell—whiskiedlaugh:

\"Thatscumyousentlastnightsoondied。Hooray!\"

ExposureI

Ourbrainsache,inthemercilessicedeastwindsthatknifeus……

Weariedwekeepawakebecausethenightissilent……

Lowdroopingflaresconfuseourmemoryofthesalient……

Worriedbysilence,sentrieswhisper,curious,nervous,Butnothinghappens。

Watching,wehearthemadguststuggingonthewire。

Liketwitchingagoniesofmenamongitsbrambles。

Northwardincessantly,theflickeringgunneryrumbles,Faroff,likeadullrumourofsomeotherwar。

Whatarewedoinghere?

Thepoignantmiseryofdawnbeginstogrow……

Weonlyknowwarlasts,rainsoaks,andcloudssagstormy。

DawnmassingintheeasthermelancholyarmyAttacksoncemoreinranksonshiveringranksofgray,Butnothinghappens。

Suddensuccessiveflightsofbulletsstreakthesilence。

Lessdeadlythantheairthatshuddersblackwithsnow,Withsidelongflowingflakesthatflock,pauseandrenew,Wewatchthemwanderingupanddownthewind’snonchalance,Butnothinghappens。

II

Paleflakeswithlingeringstealthcomefeelingforourfaces——

Wecringeinholes,backonforgottendreams,andstare,snow—dazed,Deepintograssierditches。Sowedrowse,sun—dozed,Litteredwithblossomstricklingwheretheblackbirdfusses。

Isitthatwearedying?

Slowlyourghostsdraghome:glimpsingthesunkfiresglozedWithcrusteddark—redjewels;cricketsjinglethere;

Forhourstheinnocentmicerejoice:thehouseistheirs;

Shuttersanddoorsallclosed:onusthedoorsareclosed——

Weturnbacktoourdying。

Sincewebelievenototherwisecankindfiresburn;

Noweversunssmiletrueonchild,orfield,orfruit。

ForGod’sinvinciblespringourloveismadeafraid;

Therefore,notloath,welieouthere;thereforewereborn,ForloveofGodseemsdying。

To—night,Hisfrostwillfastenonthismudandus,Shrivellingmanyhandsandpuckeringforeheadscrisp。

Theburying—party,picksandshovelsintheirshakinggrasp,Pauseoverhalf—knownfaces。Alltheireyesareice,Butnothinghappens。

SpringOffensiveHaltedagainsttheshadeofalasthill,Theyfed,and,lyingeasy,wereateaseAnd,findingcomfortablechestsandkneesCarelesslyslept。ButmanytherestoodstillTofacethestark,blankskybeyondtheridge,Knowingtheirfeethadcometotheendoftheworld。

Marvellingtheystood,andwatchedthelonggrassswirledBytheMaybreeze,murmurouswithwaspandmidge,ForthoughthesummeroozedintotheirveinsLiketheinjecteddrugfortheirbones’pains,Sharpontheirsoulshungtheimminentlineofgrass,Fearfullyflashedthesky’smysteriousglass。

Hourafterhourtheyponderthewarmfield——

Andthefarvalleybehind,wherethebuttercupsHadblessedwithgoldtheirslowbootscomingup,Whereeventhelittlebrambleswouldnotyield,Butclutchedandclungtothemlikesorrowinghands;

Theybreatheliketreesunstirred。

TilllikeacoldgustthrilledthelittlewordAtwhicheachbodyanditssoulbegirdAndtightenthemforbattle。NoalarmsOfbugles,nohighflags,noclamoroushaste——

OnlyaliftandflareofeyesthatfacedThesun,likeafriendwithwhomtheirloveisdone。

Olargershonethatsmileagainstthesun,——

Mightierthanhiswhosebountythesehavespurned。

So,soontheytoppedthehill,andracedtogetherOveranopenstretchofherbandheatherExposed。AndinstantlythewholeskyburnedWithfuryagainstthem;andsoftsuddencupsOpenedinthousandsfortheirblood;andthegreenslopesChasmedandsteepenedsheertoinfinitespace。

OfthemwhorunningonthatlasthighplaceLeapttoswiftunseenbullets,orwentupOnthehotblastandfuryofhell’supsurge,Orplungedandfellawaypastthisworld’sverge,SomesayGodcaughtthemevenbeforetheyfell。

Butwhatsaysuchasfromexistence’brinkVenturedbutdravetooswifttosink。

Thefewwhorushedinthebodytoenterhell,Andthereout—fiendingallitsfiendsandflamesWithsuperhumaninhumanities,Long—famousglories,immemorialshames——

Andcrawlingslowlyback,havebydegreesRegainedcoolpeacefulairinwonder——

Whyspeaktheynotofcomradesthatwentunder?

TheChancesImindas’owthenightaforethatshowUsfivegottalking,——wewasintheknow,\"Overthetopto—morrer;boys,we’reforit,Firstwaveweare,firstruddywave;that’storeit。\"

\"Ahwell,\"saysJimmy,——an’’e’sseensomescrappin’——

\"Thereain’tmorenorfivethingsascan’appen;

Yegetknockedout;elsewounded——badorcushy;

Scuppered;ornowtexceptyerfeelingmushy。\"

Oneofusgottheknock—out,blowntochops。

T’otherwashurt,like,losin’both’isprops。

An’one,tousethewordof’ypocrites,’AdthemisfortoontobetookbyFritz。

Nowme,Iwasn’tscratched,praiseGodAlmighty(ThoughnexttimepleaseI’llthank’imforablighty),ButpooryoungJim,’e’slivin’an’’e’snot;

’Ereckoned’e’dfivechances,an’’e’s’ad;

’E’swounded,killed,andpris’ner,allthelot——

Theruddylotallrolledinone。Jim’smad。

S。I。W。

\"IwilltotheKing,Andofferhimconsolationinhistrouble,Forthatmantherehassethisteethtodie,Andbeingonethathatesobedience,Discipline,andorderlinessoflife,Icannotmournhim。\"

W。B。Yeats。

Pattinggoodbye,doubtlesstheytoldtheladHe’dalwaysshowtheHunabraveman’sface;